Thursday, November 28, 2002

i keep almost replying to e-mails. aside from those people who need repeated prodding and even blunt accusations of rudeness or coldhearted abandon (boys), my friends (girls) are pretty great e-mailers! but then i sit, inevitable at the IEP computer lab, contacts and/or hair drying, and i can't think of anything to really say. not that surprising. but just as well, because it's thanksgiving! i get a few more days of respite! because most of my friends are at their houses (or at my house! hi hanseul and fam!) enjoying great warm food and warm radiators and the...superbowl? i don't remember. some kind of football happens on thanksgiving, right? in my house, i'm sure it will be the hot new korean video wonder. ahh i really wonder what is for thanksgiving dinner chez moi. we will instead have a nice thanksgiving dinner à l'américaine at a restaurant - not a chinese restaurant - and clink glasses, eat turkey aux marrons, etc etc.

i love aggregation! and google!
i feel like all wharton freshmen who go through opim 101 are converted to google after the homework assignment they make us do. T/F?

Friday, November 22, 2002

i'm looking at the poster posted on the wall in fronna me, which is a hymn to the cell phone...it goes a bit like this...and is a translation of the french version which is above it. so i'm not sure how funny it's supposed to be.

Our Friend the Mobile Phone.
We can only be thankful to you for the favours that you daily do us.
You are ubiquitous in our activities and your autonomy is ever greater.
But it would be suitable and advisable for you to be less conspicuous, out of due respect for the people who are busy working in this room.
Indeed, it is sometimes annoying and even galling to hear your ever so original jingles throughout the day.
In the future, we will be all the more grateful as you will place yours calls outside the computer room.
We are tankful to you for your kind collaboration.


it works on so many levels! i'm sure my semiologie du poetique prof could say great things about the difference between the signified and the significant or some similarly terrible lacanian quip. yay! so, yesterday. what i love maybe more than shows is venues. someplace to call home or call home about. gosh, this is all related to the conversation we had last night at 2P+C, over our overpriced drinks (even if they were haribo garnished). the 'i got mugged in new york and now i hate new york' syndrome. the 'my french host mother defreezes eggrolls to make me feel welcome and now i feel smug towards france' syndrome. attaching meaning to place. for me it can not but help going back to independence day, one of my lasting pulitzer bibles of portable philosophies, and how location is really no more than what we imbue it with. why i will always have a soft spot for saratoga and why i love watching from the train window to see the staid philly skyline. why new york frustrates me, why i'm obsessed with rome. why seoul will never stop throwing me off...

because we measure life to a large extent by location, i think. (les trois unités!) démanagement. time, as the selfsame semiologie prof said a few hours ago, can be measured in both digital and analog. what you see when you boredly fix your ocular equipment on your wristwatch, your heart thumping, and try to watch the minute hand glide around the dial, is one representation of time - it is (supposedly) constantly fluidly moving. whereas digital is tick tick tick the 1s and the 0s and little fluorescent sticks moving around, forming numbers. whereas location/place is quite different. we don't actually most of us go around measuring footfalls. instead maybe we measure space with emotional content.

study abroad is so questionable and even illegitimate in some ways (or in some people) because it eventually just amounts to american propaganda. this longing to wake up in a land where diners exist! like as you get borne further and further away from the things you depend on - political correctness, overdeodorization, diversity, hubris, well organized educational institutions! with real toilets! - the more you crane your neck for shore. but also for some...it's the chance to pack lots of little things (as small as the open-air market in aix-en-provence, or as weighty as a pain au chocolat) into a little box labeled 'france'. of course it's both for everyone! of course! this includes me.

but what i really wanted to say was that i feel so fat these days, i've gained like four kilos, and i have no money, and no house in philly, and i'm at a loss! and my contacts are old and give me headaches all the time. god i hate headaches. and that our new catechism is probably something as naughty as 'split up, hook up, regroup'...and that for a few days i was eating eclairs and reading jd salinger to stay afloat. now it's much less.

Saturday, November 16, 2002

okay. wearing my 'kick me' glasses, and it never works for me! i could look in the mirror a dozen times a la querulous narcissus and still not feel okay with wearing glasses in public. so, paris. driving to paris took a long time, especially because of the harrowing peripherique and the rain and my car headache. at that point, we had not really overdosed on haribo candy. we stayed in a pleasantly grimy hostel near the mairie de clichy metro stop, where they serve a light and refreshing orange drink for breakfast, along with those really standard hostel white bread rolls. what did we do? obeying the cheerful suggestions in my let's go france guide paid off for a really great dinner at le petit vatel or something like that. then sleep. then flea market fun, montmartre, complete rejection at the modigliani exhibit at luxembourg, firecracking punks at abbesses, and then the couscous story began. bar royale. free couscous for everybody! so much of it! regards croisés cigarette vendor woman! and an amazing amandine aux framboises tarte in the marais and free'p star stays open til 11 and then sleep and then on sunday i don't remember much more than the ride home. and then we haribosed. and pringled. and megan show/sage...-ed our way to lyon!

Thursday, November 14, 2002

oh my goodness. one of the things which makes my heart sink and fail is when my pants are too long for my short legs, and it's rained, and then i look like a complete bum. another thing is going shoe leche-vitrining, in definite lyon autumn weather, wearing birkenstocks, and then i also look like a complete bum. will i also look like a bum if i move into a house on baltimore avenue? this remains to be seen. i will definitely look like a bum traipsing around london, stockholm, and copenhagen by myself for christmas (this is where someone reads this and volunteers to come to these places with me). i went grocery shopping today with madame, and the most fun thing we bought was: chestnut spread with vanilla. yesterday was my mom's birthday! and i sent her a card. and i went to paris this weekend. that involved couscous and almost getting locked in the metro. this sense of dread will not go away soon. four weekends left in lyon!

Wednesday, November 6, 2002

so, italy. first milan then rome. lots of gelato 'as big as my head!' and dark unfathomable men. and swedish girls! and big, old, things (made out of stone). an italia soccer t-shirt to paolo's almost consternation. motorbiking everywhere (and especially to san pietro!) and me, realizing what it takes to make me really happy on a random night. it is of course dancing to the cure and david bowie which makes everything glow. via testaccio being my kind of place because there are liquor trucks! people saying to me, 'chinatown?' is less helpful but still very, very, good. the only drawback to going to italy is coming back to france and it's true that maybe there isn't enough of a difference that i should've been so forcibly bumped aside except that maybe...

Tuesday, November 5, 2002

italy. wow. italy. argh! finishing my translation. but italy!